i crave intimacy.
these scenes keep running thru my head. scenes of the last guy i dated. of him taking my hand as we walked up his stairs; him caressing my hair as i told him how my day was; us cuddling, legs intertwined, arms wrapped around each other as we talked about our goals + dreams. i think i miss those things most about companionship. and about him. he was affectionate. probably more than any guy i’ve dated. but he was also very open; easy to talk to. i liked how ambitious he was. i miss him + i kinda hate that i do. sometimes i wonder what went wrong even though i definitely know what went wrong.
